A song about living with an anxiety condition compounded by childhood trauma, that heavily affects your ability to keep it together and accomplish what's expected of you.
lyrics
Oh, I’m struggling, I’m a real pro.
I like a good struggle, I never say no.
Oh, I’m struggling, it’s all that I see.
Because what’s easy for you is never easy for me.
Oh, I’m struggling, won’t you come watch me fall?
I’ve got every emotion and I’m showing them all.
Oh I’m struggling, I’m a little confused,
and that’s probably from all the years of abuse.
Oh, I’m struggling, I stand on the wall.
They’ll give me chances, but I’ll blow them all.
Oh, I’m struggling, it’s all that I know.
But if it were easy, would it be a good show?
Oh, I’m struggling, won’t you come watch me fall?
I’ve got every emotion and I’m showing them all.
Oh, I’m struggling, I’m a little confused,
and I know that’s from all the years of abuse.
Oh, but you’re making your mark, just believe.
I know I’ve asked, will I receive?
Will I make my mark if I just believe?
Well, I’m asking now, will I receive?
Oh, I’m struggling, won’t you come watch me fall?
I’ve got every emotion and I’m showing them all.
Oh, I’m struggling, I’m a little confused,
and I know that’s from all the years of abuse.
Oh, I’m struggling, it’s all that I know.
But if it were easy, would it be a good show?
It’s all I know. It’s how I roll.
It’s all I know. And it’s how I roll.
Oh, it’s all that I know.
credits
from Fix the World,
released September 15, 2023
Songwriter: Carmen Toth
Vocals/Guitars: Carmen Toth
Drums/Additional Guitars: Joel Wasson
Bass: Drew Atkins
Lead guitar: Michael McKenzie
Produced by Joel Wasson and John Critchley
Mixed by John Critchley
Mastered by Joao Carvalho
Carmen Toth is a Toronto singer-songwriter with a power pop sound reminiscent of the 80s and 90s. Whether on acoustic guitar
playing solo or on electric with a full band, her unique, childlike voice, relatable lyrics and catchy hooks have drawn comparisons to Stevie Nicks, Cyndi Lauper and Kate Bush. Active in the independent music scene since 2003, she has released three EPs and one LP....more
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